488th; My heart beat started pounding out riddle in my brain

Voice from deep inside said, 'You got to be insane'

Why is is that everyone is improving except me.
Why is it that everyone are getting good results except me.

Why is it that the amount of effort i put in doesn't tally with the results i get.

Why is it so.

Desperation, exasperation, frustration.

Effit.

Never had confidence in myself.

On the edge of giving up.

Better not, too many factors pulling me back.

I don't wanna disappoint myself.

The worst has yet to come, if i'm already like this right now, i don't think i can survive next year.

There's always one thing called determination.

But i believe its not in my dictionary.

Damn, i think i've recieved a 'determine' charactor badge when i was in primary school.

Alright, i think that optimism is definitely in my dictionary.

Just continue striving hard, everything would be alright.

Goes out to everyone out there, especially the person whose name starts with K and surname's F and is very crazy.

Okay! I just got cut by a knife.

Emo cut~~

Hahah! Kidding, i think people who cuts themselves are really stupid.

What for hurt themselves.

Okay i better not say so much, just in case i get emo and cut myself next time.

Stupiddddd

I have an amazing news!

I'm officially down with an awesome fever!

How, nice, and marrrrvellous.

Luckily its just a slight fever.

Weather is super duper, bad.

SS test was rushy.

Mr Goh came late and wanted us to do structured essay and source based.

Finished my structured essay by 830 had 2 source based left, and im suppose to hand it in by 845.

Wrote briefly through by source based. There's only 8 mins left, for two questions

Cause it took me pretty long too understand what the sources are telling me.

Sure cannot make it.

HAHAH!

Supposed to have oral today.

After school Miss Choy came in and said index 1 to 20's oral is postponed and Miss Karasi would inform us again.

Was on the bus on my way home, Jiamin called me and said Miss Karasi said the oral is not postponed.

Totally what the hell!

Urgh

I hope oral wont be tomorrow

I NEED TO STUDY MY COMPO!

Don't ask me how i study compo, i have my ways.

Me and my stupid ways. HAHAH.

Blah, i think there's nothing else.

Cause social studies is in my head.

Just finished the N.Ireland notes.

I know I'm slow, but i kinda can't remember things if i study too early.

Last minute memory works best for me.

One day a 5 year old kid went to a restuarant with his family.

They waited for very long for the waiters to come.

The 5 year old kid got impatient and shout to his mum

"WHY ARE THEY CALLED WAITERS! WE ARE THE ONES WAITING!"

Jokes brightens up my day! Or night!

Hahahah!

Love you so.

487th; Blame it on the girrrrls, blame it on the boyyys

I had an exciting day today!
Hahahah.
Started off with PE.
Last PE before the start of EOY.
Side note: 2 MORE WEEKS AND THE EXAMS WOULD END!
Au'some!
Played floorball again!
I love floorball!
So fun!

Chemistry lesson was funny.
Mr Kaur was hunting for handphones cause Jia Rui's phone was confiscated by Ms Kaur cause she said Junyuan was using it.
After that in the middle of the lesson, James purposely took out his wallet, flip it open and said "Hello Mummy ah?" HAHAH super funny!
Ms Kaur immediately turned to look at him and wanna confiscate his 'phone'. LOL! Damn funny!
She was laughing too!

After school, went out of school for lunch and to get stationery.
With Sam, Mich, Jas and Claire.
Ate our lunch at some cafe in the library.
Waited for super long for the food.
We were all very nervous cause its 1 45 and the food have not come yet, and math supp starts at 210.
Planned to rush through our food, and not go Popular, and take a bus back to school.
Ran back to school and we reached at 2 25.
I'm glad Mr Lee did not scold.
Hahahah.
Physics supp after that, suddenly, me, sam and michelle were very high.
Don't know why.
Mr Lau is funny, and I think I'm starting to love physics.
Hahahah. Good news!

Just too bad that the year is ending.
I hope he could teach us next year.

I AM SO HAPPY I AM SO HAPPY I AM SO HAPPY I AM SO HAPPY!
Not cause of my test result, it sucks like shit. Okay, at least i did pass. BUT NOT WELL DONE ENOUGH!

Yes!Yes!Yes!

Love ya dear!

486th; Someone you can look up to

Underwater pleasures.

Felt the tremor yesterday halfway through Physics revision for the test today.
It all started when i was falling asleep on my sofa with Physics textbook in my hands while memorising definations.
Felt like i was shaking suddenly, woke up.
Grandma was like "EH! WHY IS IT SHAKING!?"
I've got a bell hanging from the ceiling, and it started swinging and ringing.
Scary. It lasted for quite sometime. Tremor was pretty great.
First time i felt such a huge tremor. Feels like the whole building is gonna collapse.
Worst was my house was quite high, and you seriously can feel the whole house moving.
Still remembered two weeks ago, while crossing the bridge with sam, suddenly, the bridge started swaying a little bit too.
I have no idea what happened, but it felt like we were in the Harry Potter movie. The part when the bridge started twisting and turning cause of the deatheaters.
LOL Nice imagination?
Hahahahah.

Watched the news and realized that many countries had earthquake and tsunami yesterday.
Indonesia, New Zealand, Japan.
NEW ZEALAND!!! So sad.
It felt like the world is coming to an end.
Was very very very hazy yesterday, and there's the quake.
Frightening. I wonder will this be how the world ends.
Wanna watch 2012, hahahhaha.
Maybe not, just viewed the trailer, looks so scary.

School was as usual.
English lesson was fun, learning to pronounce the words.
Hahahahah. Recess was emotional.
Sam, youre so brave.
Stay strong!
Admire your courage. Smile love.
If you need anyone to talk to, I'm nearer than a phonecall away.

Michelle, i know you can be positive!
So, smile too!

House is so quiet.
Not used to it.
Kids grandma look after aint here.
Mum's invited to some dinner.
Dad's out.

Hahahah, i feel so funny.
And wierd.
Nevermind.

Okay, I'm out.

I love you.

485th; Chances are the fascination

I'd rather change my stacks of assessments and textbooks and rough papers into storybooks.
Suckening. If there's such a word. Cause i just merged sickening and sucks together.

When was my last post? Oh Friday!
Let's see, saturday, chem supp class. Asked Ms Kaur to teach the few of us chemical calculations and moles after that.
I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD!
Nice.
Sunday, let's skip the details. I shall give you the overall picture.
Study, revision, and more revision.
Monday!
EMath test. Its pretty manageable yet not.
Contradiction in terms.
HAH! Whatever!
Cause everytime i think it is manageable, the results would be like shit.
So its better for me to remain neutral. Right?
Yeap.
Am i answering myself? Hah!
Blah. Don't mind me. I need some time away from my books.
But yet, i have nothing to do if i don't study.
So, let me entertain myself :)
Oh yeah!
Can you believe it? Me, michelle and Sam were talking about Pokemon yesterday!
HAHAH!
We sounded so stupid on the way to the bus stop, cause some primary school kids were walking beside us.
LOL! Sam suggested we should exchange uniforms with them. HAHAH!
I remember that Macdonald pokemon toy. That small soft toy with a zip and you can flip it to evolve into another Pokemon.
Oh my goodness.
Please eh, i grew up with Pokemon.
Cannot blame. Its like, my favourite cartoon of all time when i was young.
Beside Digimon. HAHAH.
I used to wake up exactly 9 on Saturday to watch pokemon.
And 9 on Sunday to watch Digimon.
LOL! Sheesh.
I really cannot believe I am talking about these.
Hahahah. Grow up, grow up.
But right, i think its good to have childhood memories.
So...
Damn, here i go again.
I don't know what's wrong with me!

Okay, gotta quit it.
Went to get my stationery today.
Finally. I'm running out of everything.
Idiotic 0.38 pen. The ink is still pretty full and it went out.
Just because i wrote it on my liquid accidentally.
What a stupid act. Lol!
Bought quite a number of pen, cause i believe i would need alot of ink these few days.
Especially SS and Geog EOY.
And my notes.

Emath TEST down, chemistry TEST down.
English compre TEST tomorrow, Physics TEST on Thursday, A Math TEST on Friday.
Yeap, they are just test. Not EXAMS.
The worst has yet to come!
Okay i just realised, I'm sorry to demoralize you guys!

I have to try my luck in searching a song title.
Cause the lyrics came up to my head all of the sudden this morning when i was tying my hair.
Hahahah! Got it stuck in my head the whole day.
"I don't wanna know, cause my heart can't take it anymore"
This damn phrase. I can't remember the title of the song.
Its been so freaking long since i last heard it! I have no idea why it suddenly pop up in my head.
Okay bye!

OHOH, did i mention?
I suddenly remembered. HAHAH
I had the most exciting and interesting dream on saturday night.
It is so action-packed and totally cool! I can still remember it. LOL
Cause i usually can't seem to remember my dreams.

Thank you Claire and Jasmine for the card. Its really sweet of you guys.
& Kimberly for the gift. Thanks for giving me the motivation to save money!
& sister and simon. I love what you gave me.

Loveyou,loveyou.
Totally.

484th; Kick down the new year and the future

Its been how many days since i touched this?
Hahahahah.
Let's start off with Tuesday.
-Mr Goh did not come, a weird relief teacher came, who is kinda vulgar, so not teacher-like, and pretty...Big.
Wednesday:
Erm, i can't really remember eh.
HAHAH. Went straight home after school, alone, cause sam, michelle and jasmine went for 'lunch' (they claimed they went for lunch).
Realised how easily i can be tricked.
Anyoways. Did loads of graphs when i reached home, till i got a cut on my hand. Too much friction, cause i really erased alot. HAHAH how pathetic.
Thursday:
Erm, still can't remember anything.
Only remembered i rushed straight home to memorise geography and to finish up emath homework.
Trigo, trigo and more trigo.

Stepped into the classroom today, with the super big Happy Birthday on the board written by Samantha, and a penguin which doesn't seem too successful.
HAHAH! I'm still really grateful :)
Thank you, you people. Especially, Samantha, Michelle, Claire and Jasmine.
-Jia Rui, Jia En, Samantha, Claire, Shamien, Belle, Caiwen, and Rachel for the messages. Hahahah.
-Zhibin, Deena and Cousin and Belle, for the FB messages.
-Wai Mei, Corin, Kimberly, Jiamin, Minling, Jesslyn, Brenna, Jingwen, Wei Kwang, Alan, James, Justin, Kelvin, Jia Rui, Zuhaily, Joseph, Joon Tong, Lincoln, Janice and sorry for those i can't remember, the birthday wishes.
Thanks:
-Michelle for the "Gong xi ni! Ni 15 sui le!"
-Sean, for the Rock On plaster and birthday wishes.
-Kristopher, who shouted "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" from the third floor.
-Jiarui, who wants to put a dead lizard which Mr Tan squashed in my bag. I'm glad Zuhaily kicked it away. HAHAH.
-James, who just kept calling me birthday girl and claiming i'll have good luck today.
-Kimberly, for the bashes and tickles, Yoke Huei too. HAHAH.
-Joseph, for the 'artistic candle' and MY eraser.
-Samantha and Michelle for the birthday card, i was smiling to myself while reading.
Hahahah, thank you so much. What a bee-ish birthday card. :)
-Wei kwang for the math question.
-Kelvin for the lighter.
- Justin for his, omgosh perspiration.
- Jasmine and Claire, for entertaining me
-Mr Lee, for fanning. LOL!
-This awesome guy, with a packet of milo. Was hungry, so thanks. HAHAH.
- And the kid my grandma look after. He gave me 2 packets of chocolate, which is actually his Children Day's present. How nice of him huh?

Hope this is sincere.
Really wanna express my gratitude.
There's no words i can say enough to describe how i feel.
Sounds really cliche, but still, thanks loaaaaads.
After school was really awesome, the cheesecake was fantastic.
Laughed like mad in classroom, Joseph was super duper funny.
Went for lunch after that, without Michelle. Saddening.
Still managed to have fun though, laughed and laughed, till i can't breathe.
Stayed there for quite a few hours, talking about all random stuff. Huh. I love NEW YORK JASMINE. HAHAHAHHA!
Thank you Sam, Claire and Jasmine, for spending the rest of the day with me.

OH! & Jia En! I just recieved a letter-birthday card from her. :)

I love the presents and cake, and you guys :)
Hope everything can remain as it is down the future. Everyone being so happy and cheerful. :)

Lastly! I have not mention the most important and unique thing that happened on my birthday.
When i reached home, went into the bathroom, switch on the shower, guess what?
NO WATER!
Grandma came to me after that and said, there will be no water cause the agency is doing some stuff. & Have to stop it to prevent disruption.
So, now, 7.43 PM.
I AM STILL VERY DIRTY.
I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT WATER.
I FEEL SO UNCOMFORTABLE!
What a wonderful birthday surprise!
:)
Unique huh.

Thanks for everything. S, M, C & J.
I love you guys.
& you too dear, take good care of your health.

483th;

OHMYGOODNESS!
HELL LOADS OF MEMORIES!!!!

!!!!!

I still remember how i know these songs. HAHAHAH
Wow.

482th; She saw his blue eyes cry

Oh, pretty little soul.
She fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine
just like it used to be
And then she whispered
"How can you do this to me?"

Watched a little bit of Emmy in the morning while waiting for Jasmine.
Went swimming, with sam and jas.
I think I'm tanned now. Sun was really, whooo.
But the water was freezing.
Kind of, abit imbalance eh.
Hahahahah, talked about every random thing in the pool.
Went up after about, 2 hours? Bathed, and went to order pizza.
Hair smells really chlorine-y.
CHEMISTRY!!!! Whoops.
Watched Underdog while we're having lunch.
I have to wiki that guy later, he looks seriously like Mitchel Musso.
Michelle came after that. Did math. Again.
Samantha's brother and his girlfriend was making some stuff in the kitchen.
Was it Tiramisu? Or cake? Can't remember.
Just remembered that sam and her brother's conversation was damn funny.
LOL! Was doing papers and laughing at them.
Okay, what's next.
Actually nothing, just math and math and math.
Total Math-ness.
HAHAH!
Okay sorry.
Wii-ed abit, and went home.
Rained really heavily, so had to stay a little bit later.
No umbrella. I never fail to, not bring an umbrella when its raining.
Always bring it at the wrong time.
Stopped after a while, left her house.
Sky was still dark, walked to the bus stop, get up the bus, travelled some distance, and rained really heavily again.
Its awesome that i don't need an umbrella after that.
If not, my precious shirt would be wet.
HAHAH! How cool, everyone just stare at my shirt.
:D

Okay.
Bye.

Shane Dawson's videos never fails to make me laugh.
HAHAH!

Loadso'love.

481th; All the right moves, and all the wrong faces

Tell me something, seriously.

WHY ARE ALL THE NICE MOVIES RATED NOWADAYS!
Its really stupid, and of course, not to say, irritating.

I hate it man.

Oh yeah, watched Shark Boy and Lava Girl yesterday, followed by Van Helsing.
Of course, i did that after i completed my whole day of revision.

Which actually, only includes A&E math.

I cannot believe i resisted temptations.

That is, till dinner time.

Hey, its not bad already, 8 30am- 6.60pm.

10 hours of revision. (Mathematics only)

Oh, okay, back to the movies topic.

Watched Shark Boy and Lava girl when i was younger, and i seriously did not notice that shark boy is actually Taylor Lautner till yesterday!

Its like totally omg, 4 years ago, he's acting in a kid show, now he's acting in New Moon.

HAHAHAH, no wonder halfway through the show, I'm thinking where I've seen shark boy before.

Van helsing was kinda long.
Slept at 1. Woke up at 9. Had tuition, till, 11. Math again.

Okay, actually, my whole weekend was just really...maths-y.

& messy. Rough papers everywhere.

Gotta clear it up later, and start my Science revision.

Okay ciao.

Shall continue my Wiki-ing.

I love you.

480th; I’ve paint a picture of a perfect place

Hello World.
Had an amazing day?
I hope you had.

I have nothing to post.
Perhaps i have, i just can't remember what it is.
Nothing much going on in my life these days anyway.
Mr Lee made us do a revision schedule.
Can't remember what i wrote on it.
Cause anyway, I'm gonna do a new one.

Played floorball during PE today.
Was super fun.
Really tired, not because i've ran around alot.
Its cause i laughed really crazily while playing.
Breathless.
The ball went out of our area, to Joseph's team's area.
Went to get it, and i have no idea why, their team started playing with our ball.
Was laughing like mad. Wasn't even playing with them, and ended up having to, just to get it back.

Errrrr.
I'm kinda lost for words now.
Blanked out all of a sudden.
HAH!

Oh, i think that a violin player in rock bands are really nice.
Its cool to hear the sound of a violin in the middle of electric guitar streaks and drum beats.
Very nice.

& I didn't realised Blue October is this rock-ish.
Heard their songs in Sec 1, but i didnt know they were so damn punk.
I thought they were just one of the nice bands in my brother's pile of music.
Never bothered to check them out.

I think Tokio Hotel's lead singer is really pretty.
But he's a guy, and he sound like a girl, and look like a girl.
I really pretty girl, in my opinion.
Wierd.

Oh, & thanks sam!
Don't ask me what for :D

Love you.

479th; Fainted to the point of tears

When it all felt, stranded. All alone. There wasn't anyone around. Not even one.

Been catching up with some stuff lately.

Tried to balance up my playtime and worktime.

And definitely, worktime need to be so much more.

Look at how near EOY is, and you can feel the urgency.

My playtime? Is basically just watching episodes of a show on my com.

That's all. One episode, 41 minutes, the rest of the time = STUDY.

Love GG.

A quick post, before i head to my revision.

Yesterday was hot.

Today too.

But now, it just got really cold.

Raining heavily, very windy.

Yesterday's haze was frightening.

That's the reason why i can't stop sneezing.

Sensitive nose ya see.

That's one reason, why i need a country, with clear air.

Fresh air.

Stayed back for lunch with Michelle, Sam, Corin and Joanna yesterday.

I had to help mum buy some stuff.

Did a bit of math, and left school with Michelle.

Sam, Corin and Joanna had to go for IDEAs.

Walked to the bus stop, saw my bus. (the one i took to go home)

Said bye to Michelle and chased after it.

After the bus travelled quite some distance, i was like "Damn, I wasn't even suppose to take this bus."

Oh! Today, SS was free period.

Talk to sam about primary school life.

Really idiotic, and hilarious.

I can't stop laughing, just thinking about how i used to be.

After school, there was a lizard in class.

Beside Minling's bag, it even went inside.

And her desk was like so near ours.

Sam freaked out and left her table.

James went to scare that lizard and it jumped out of her bag.

Jesus! Most of the girls in class just screamed and ran far away from the lizard.

Oh yeah, that includes me. Did not scream like how sam did though.

She's perfect at screaming. Whooo, amazing.

Bertrand caught it after that.

And the idiotic james asked him to bring to us.

The few of us basically just ran around the whole class to avoid it!

Oh my goodness!

James took the lizard from bertrand after that, and chase after us.

Sam's reaction was priceless!

She ran so damn fast when James chased after her with the lizard.

Its the fastest I've seen her run.

HAHAH!

Okay, gonna fly.

Bye.

This thing called love,

It has always been in me, to you.

I'm just clueless what's going on lately.

478th; But they tore me apart like a hurricane

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
And you can keep all your misery.
-

477th;

Watch these vids.
In order.
Trust me, it is OHMYGOODNESS funny.
I won't post videos unless they are really awesome, or in this case.
HILARIOUS!


Don't you think you heard horse pee telly tee and leopard prince when she said?
The next one is the remix. LOL.




I don't meant to be so bad, but man.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Ahem, she's afterall, our MISS SINGAPORE WORLD 2009.
"You know? Boomz!"

476th; When i see you, in a silhouette. & i watch you, and i can't forget

Chemistry supplementary yesterday.

Math supplementary today.

Was almost late yesterday, but no, did not end up to be.

Cause Ms Kaur was still teaching the previous class when i reached.

Time seems to be crawling.

Don't know why.

& claire bought loads of things from china!

Thanks claire! Although some tastes wierd.

Heee.

Was late today.

Cause i walked to the elevator i always take, it stopped working.

Had to turn back and walk to the other elevator.

Reached the groundfloor, walked to the traffic light, and 853 just zoomed past in front of me.

Worst is that 2 buses came together.

Can't cross the road, there's loads of cars.

Had to watch it fly past.

Waited for quite sometime for the next one.

And it drove really slowly.

Of all days. Hahahah

Okay.

Gotta transfer some songs.

Bye!

I love you dear.

Can't be just plain words.

Can never be.